The major reality of my life is that I am human. With all the failings and weaknesses and dreams and disappointments that come with being human.
Why would I think I were not human? you might rightly ask.
Because for most of our lives, our human-ness does not call us to account.
Lately, mine has.
Here’s something I’ve just read that I want to share with you:
The witchdoctor succeeds for the same reason the rest of us doctors succeed. Each patient carries his own doctor inside him. They come to us not knowing this truth. We are at our best when we give the doctor who resides within each person a chance to go to work.
This quote is attributed to Albert Schweitzer, the physician best known for his work in French Equatorial Africa in the 50s. He also won though the Nobel Peace Prize for his philosophical piece, Reverence for Life.
What is Reverence for Life? Here is how Albert Schweitzer describes it:
The ethical values that underpin the true ideals of civilisation.
It’s heady stuff.
I got that quote above from an academic book I’m reading at the moment on shamanism. This is part of my research into the third book in the Palace of Fires trilogy, the final book being called Beast.
I have to deliver this manuscript to my publishers, Penguin Random House, by October 31st. 100,000 words, or thereabouts. In May, I decided that the only way I could do this was by starting June 1st, and writing 1,000 words a day for 100 days.
Now, you may think that writing 1,000 words is no big deal. Believe me, when you’re writing a complex novel – the third in a series which has to bring everything, and every character, to a satisfying conclusion – and it has to be good writing, well, let me tell you, it’s a huge task.
I set myself the goal of the end of September to complete the 100,000 words – and it’s the end of September and I’m at 97,685. I have probably another four or five days of writing to complete the manuscript. This then gives me all of October to do revisions, before handing it in on schedule.
To that extent, it’s like walking a Camino. It’s best not to think about the gargantuan task of walking across the whole of Spain – just think where you’ll end up that night. How many kilometres you’ll need to walk a day to get to Santiago by a certain date.
That’s how I approached this writing task.
Day by day – through the power of incrementation.
In amongst it though I have been working solidly on PGS – with continual marketing and preparing for the upcoming online release, and also the release of the book of the film, which I will announce very soon.
The end result of this though is that I’m knackered – and I simply can’t face the immediate prospect of a long walk – my “Front Door” 3,000km walk which I had slated for November.
I need to rest.
I need to recover.
I can’t keep pushing myself like this.
I’ll fall over.
So, that means I will have to reschedule my beloved walk to next year.
And next year I want to begin production on my next film in the PGS trilogy: Fear Not.
It will look at fear, in all its aspects, and look at how we can live without it. I see it as a companion piece to PGS, and intuition.
By the end of this year I will have had two 100,000 word books published by Penguin Random House, I will have written a third, I will have written and had published by Arcadia Press PGS – Intuition is your Personal Guidance System – the 50,000 word book of the film. I will have travelled for five solid months back and forth across the US attending screenings of PGS – and I will have overseen and marketed the online release of that film.
A massive year.
I need a rest, before I embark on my next journey.