The “lost” blue jacket ~

This morning didn’t start well.

I nuked a frypan.

I left it on the stove and went off to handle some emails. Next I hear Jennifer calling out from upstairs: Is something burning?

Burning alright.

The frypan was burning so much that it had welded itself to the hotplate. It wasn’t burning, it was melting. I couldn’t physically pull it off the stove. I had to turn off the hotplate, wait till it cooled down, then jemmy it free.

Jennifer put it into the garbage bin – she said it had turned toxic, and couldn’t be used anymore.

Burnt frypan

Next, she asked me to make her some toast while she went out into the garden to plant snap dragons.

So I put on some toast.

When the toaster popped I wasn’t happy with the result – the toast wasn’t crispy enough. It needed a bit more heat. So I  put it on again – figuring I’d pop it part way through the cycle and it would be perfect.

Then I went off to handle a few more emails…

And of course I forgot about the toast and this is what I ended up with –

Burnt toast

It hasn’t been a good morning for me. I’ve been anxious about this trip coming up. Usually I head off on a filming trip with great excitement. This time I’m anxious.

I have some real heavy hitters to interview this time – including Carolyn Myss, Dr. Judith Orloff, Dr. Norm Shealy, Dr. John Geiger, and James Van Praagh.

Later if I have time I’ll give you more detail on these people – but suffice to say they are “headline acts” when it comes to intuition. And I want to make sure this next phase of the filming goes well, because it will constitute the core of the film.

Over the last couple of days I’ve been packing, but I haven’t been able to find my favourite summer jacket.

It’s a smokey blue jacket, which I bought in Rome last year for €90. I bought it for filming around The Vatican –

me at Vatican with glasses

But I haven’t been able to find it – and for some crazy reason all my anxiety about this upcoming filming trip has morphed into an anxiety about this blue jacket.

I have other jackets that I could take.
I have a nice brown jacket.
But I wanted to take the blue one.

So this morning, after the nuked frypan and the nuked toast, Jennifer sat me down in our front sun room, and talked me through what was happening.

She told me my emotional body was running amok – and she was right.

Actually no, she was wrong. It wasn’t running amok – it was running like a burning man consumed by flames racing from room to room, screaming, looking for a fire extinguisher.

Anyway, she was right. I told her about my anxiety, and she said that my emotional body was like a monster with a giant hammer pounding into dust all the good work I’ve been doing to strengthen my spiritual body.

My emotional body was pulverising me, she said. And I had to do something about it because soon my emotional body would have full control.

She said I had tools at my disposal – tools I knew how to use: yoga; meditation; even stopping for half an hour to sit in the sun and contemplate.

She said I could also allow myself to be drawn to a book, open it up at any page, and read – trusting that what I would read would be of help.

In other words, allow my Personal Guidance System to do its job.

I said yes, I could do all that. And in fact I did 40 minutes of yoga this morning, I did 30 minutes of meditation last night, I’ve been reading Dr. Norman Shealy’s book on Intuitive Medicine, which is extraordinary – but…


Jennifer sighed, knowing that I was indeed the burning man, still consumed by flames, running from room to room, screaming, looking for a blue jacket.

(The blue jacket being my fire extinguisher.)

Where have you looked? she asked.

I’d looked everywhere. For days and days. I’d looked in my wardrobe. In the spare wardrobe. In the spare spare wardrobe. In the wardrobe in the spare room. In the wardrobe under the stairs where we keep the hiking jackets.

A jacket isn’t like car keys. You lose your car keys, they could be anywhere. Down a crack in a lounge chair, under a book, in the ignition. With a jacket, particularly a conspicuous blue jacket, there are only a few places in a house it could be. And I’d searched them all.

Of this I was certain – the blue jacket was not in the house.

All I could think was that I’d taken the jacket to our daughter’s place in Sydney and left it there to be dry cleaned. But when I called her, she couldn’t recall having seen it.

Jennifer had no recollection of having seen the blue jacket recently –
But she said: Let me take a look.

She went upstairs.
Within twenty seconds, she called out: I’ve found it! 

She’d found the jacket on a bed in a spare bedroom. It had been partly covered by some other clothing. She’d found it almost immediately, because she’d been calm.

She came down and told me that my emotional body had prevented me finding it, because I was anxious. Anxiety, which is simply a form of fear, robs us of our clear connection to our true selves.

When we have a clear connection to our true selves, there’s no such thing as loss.

Oh and by the way, I’ve decided to take the brown jacket instead… Om


11 thoughts on “The “lost” blue jacket ~

  1. That is so truly hilarious, because we all do this!! As a matter of fact, I just found a jacket I lost over a year ago. I looked EVERYWHERE> I gave up and actually ended up buying another one (luckily in tan instead of black, like the lost one.) And guess what I found last week?? IN THE BOTTOM OF THE VERY CLOSET I SEARCHED COMPLETELY, several times!!!
    I DON’T GET HOW I MISSED IT. I even took out all the jackets and gave away the ones I didn’t use to the homeless shelter. Never came across it.

    Aw well. good for Jennifer and her calm centeredness! She was able to find it.
    Your trip will be amazing. Keep up the meditation and yoga. Chopra meditations coming up the 13th And the world compassion meditation on the 11th. don’t miss it!
    XO Kathryn


    • Yes, I see that the next Chopra meditation starts next week… And you’re right Kathryn, we do all do this. Sometimes it takes a quiet sit down, and a centring, to see what’s actually right before our eyes.


  2. Dear Bill, why are you anxious about ? This three people you mentioned are people no bombs,or threats.Everything is going to be fine even if not as you think that should be. Now I relate very well to the burning frypan and toasts.and blue jacket.But I am the specialist also of umbrella and keys missing.My emotions….Thanks for this posts that make me smile and reflex before going to work.Have a nice night.bises.


  3. Hi Bill – ‘glad to hear that Jen was able to find your blue jacket so easily.
    Certain clothes are talismans for me – ‘lucky clothes’ : not surprisingly, they’re my favourites! The current fave is a Desigual light cotton shirt – almost hanky weight – it’s so light – with huge Lotus flowers and a mandala at the back of the neck to keep me protected … I love this shirt and wear it all summer long.
    Best, BEST wishes to you and Jen for a happy and successful trip –
    Jenny xo xo


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